Time Management

I love listening to the rain. Admittedly, hearing it bounce off asphalt along with the sound of cars going by here in Auburn is not quite as relaxing as it hitting the tin roof along with the sound of crickets chirping like it would be at home. Every time it rains I miss my mom. Despite how amazing my week has been, I've felt a little freshmany through it all. Just a little homesick. 


I've been tremendously blessed to have amazing friends here who have become a family away from home. This week I've been too busy with all the new excitement that I haven't been able to invest in them the way I'd like. even with how full God has made my heart, I still desire to celebrate these new blessings with the people in my life he has blessed me with.


New goal for the week: make time for what is truly important. Namely: people who are important.

Happy Cries

Life update: I went to church tonight with 5 of my closest friends to worship with a family of 700 college students, just booked a flight because I got a grant to attend the Universities Fighting World Hunger Summit in Guelph Ontario, and I have the amazing opportunity to minister to hundreds of high school students through the SGA's High School Leadership Conference over the next 2 days.


My prayer tonight, "Thank you God for giving me far more than I could ever begin to deserve. Thank You for touching the hearts of so many around me tonight at ONE. Thank You for allowing me to be in the lives of so many beautiful young women through S.A. Thank You for allowing me the struggles I've had and the strength to get through them. Thank You. Thank You for choosing me. Thank You for loving me. Please let me continue my heart for You. Give me the strength to be the person You have made me to be. Thank You for transforming my heart for You. Thank You for allowing me to exist. Thank You for allowing me to be in the middle of so many young adults for the next few days. Thank You. Thank You for laying out such a beautiful, perfect, and pleasing plan for my life. Thank You for helping me get to the point where I want, more than anything, more than I want air in my lungs, to follow You. Thank You."


Just bawled Am currently bawling my eyes out after realizing how much I have been given in comparison to how little I deserve. I've got at least 2 more hour of work and an early morning and I am SO thankful. SO humbled. Wow. Thank You.

"He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us." Psalms 103:9-12

I don't even have words for how astonishingly humbling it is to think that the creator of the universe cares enough about me to save me. Not only to save me, but to bless me abundantly. Thank You. There is no way I could ever be worthy of the life I have been given. 


Tonight in church I was thinking about what I would say to someone who had never heard the name of Jesus. I realized that I couldn't think of anything. There was nothing I could ever say that would work. A chill came over me when it sank in that God works in moments like that. When you're working for Him it's He who is really at work!


There's no way I could ever deserve this life, but I'm not living it for me anymore. My life is His and I am His servant. Thank You. I am so so so blessed.

"I'm a little pencil in the hand of a writing God, who is sending a love letter to the world." -Mother Teresa

My soul now to stand.

WOW!! Ever have a day where no matter how hard you try, you just can't put words to how you feel? Welcome to my life. Now more than ever I am having days where my heart just gets so ridiculously overwhelmed it's out of control. Some days are bad, some days are good, and some days are just impossible to explain.

I've spent the last few months obsessing over what I was supposed to do with my summer. I've filled out applications, chased down internships, looked at camps, ugh entirely too much stress to be healthy. Well today I randomly, out of basically no where, decided to go to overseas to do missions with the church I attend in Auburn. I heard about them a few weeks ago, but hadn't thought too much into it.

Today, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I went to get a passport. Like left campus, skipped class, and spent 2 hours getting everything done. Wow. I generally tend to over-think things. Like a lot. Today I just listened. After going to the courthouse for an application, Walgreen's for a picture, and the health department for a birth certificate, I made my way back to the courthouse to wrap things up.

As I was pulling in, The Stand came on the radio. "You stood before my failure. carried the Cross for my shame. My sin weighed upon Your shoulders. My soul now to stand. So what can I say? What can I do? But offer this heart, O God, completely to You." Wow. I sat in my car, belted the song at the top of my lungs, prayed that I could be strong enough to walk God's path and continue to give him full control of my heart.

When I went in to turn everything in, I have never felt more confident in a decision in my life. I have spent years trying to decide exactly where to take my life, only to finally understand that it's not really my decision to make. God has always known where I was headed. Blahhhh I wish I knew better words to explain how beautiful today was.

This post doesn't even have a legit purpose. My heart is just too full to contain. The heart that I have finally quit trying to control. The heart that I trying daily to offer completely to God. I know this will take a conscious and consistent effort to maintain, but I am so excited.

"So I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all. So I'll stand, my soul Lord to You surrendered, all I am is Yours." 

Faith in our Faith

I came in from the library tonight with every intention of being a proactive student. Get my homework for the week done, read ahead, finish up a few organizational forms, and so on. Instead, I've spent the last hour blog-stalking one of my professors. Easily the best decision I've made all day.


She is an amazing an inspiring woman and my blog-stalking has definitely given me some motivation for the upcoming week. I read a lot of her posts, but one definitely stood out to me. It was about some book I've never read. More specifically it was about how Luke 22:31-32 stood out to her.

Luke 22:31-32 "Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift all of you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”

A verse I had never heard before. She was caught on the fact that this verse applied to all of us. That Jesus Himself prayed for us. That he had faith in our faith. Wow.


I'm relatively new to intentionally walking with God, and lately I've been concerned with showing him how much I wanted to walk with him. Showing God that I had a full faith in His sovereignty. He has faith in our faith. Wow.


I was walking to the library tonight and as I passed Mary Martin Hall I looked up and could see the stars perfectly. The moment took my breathe away. Since my I was a little kid I can remember being enamored by the stars. Seeing them is one of the biggest things I miss about home. Seeing them tonight reminded me of how beautiful and perfect God's plan was for my life, and (though I didn't have these words for it then) that he has faith in my faith. 


He has faith in our faith.


Last week was pretty ridiculous. I was stressed and my heart was so full. I let Satan win that battle more than once. Then I became even more stressed with my self for not being able to let what stress I had go. God carried me through with loving grace that I could never possibly begin to deserve.


Wow. He has faith in our faith. Faith in my faith. How comforting it is to know that I was made to worship a God who believes in me more than I could ever begin to believe in myself. 

"Salora, Salora, Satan has asked to sift all of you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Salora, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”